Hmph.

You know when you are doing something (never you mind what) that you know you probably shouldn't be doing, but you keep doing (despite your intentions to clean up your act and quite doing it) and then you get called out for doing it? Yeah. That is no fun.

And then you know how you kind of knew you might eventually be called out on it before you would be able to pull yourself together and quit, so you did it in a way that allowed for an excuse (however feeble), and you are going to be able to avoid most of the fallout because of your forsight? That is a relief, no?